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♥HELLO

Mood: Depression

Listening to: My heart.

Today's quotes: Treat people like how you want to be treated.

What? Why? How?

I was once in love, it takes me fourteen days to fall in love with this cutie after 2 years.

I fell and I knew it will be hard for me to let go this time.

Eventhough we only know each other not long, but our one day date, I felt I know him for a long period of time, I always wanted to see him, I miss him, I loved him. SO MUCH.

I gave him everything, everything he wants.

I respect him, eventhough I know I will be upset but I hold my tears, I hold my anger.

This hold me for like not even 1 year, I think 8 months after I met this cutie?

This made me suffocates, I let go once.

It came back again, on the year 2011, on the Febuary.

I felt so insecure.. I felt everything is so not right..

Until on the Valentine Day, we are like the love birds in the air.

I felt we are like the angels flying around the sky. The happiest moment in my life.

Can he feel me? I am asking, yeah.

I am telling this because NOW I feel like I am no one.

Work is the only thing you saw, I am just an illusion.

Could leave me alone when I was sad.

Could leave me alone whenever works comes.

Could even don't bother anything about us just for work.

I think you could even leave just for your work.

Whatever I do now is useless.

I won't get back anything I wanted.

All I get back was tears, heartbreaks..

You actually know what you're doing?

I am just an ordinary girl.

I need simple things to go on in my love life.

I don't compare now, but if I want to, there's lots of to compared with.

I need LOVE, a simple one.

LOVE that cares, that concern, that not self-centered, that sacrifices..

I always ask myself, 

What the hell I did in my past life to deserve this shyt?

What I haven't give you? Tell me..

Reject calls for more than 100 times, 

Just because don't want us to be happy..

Making situation worst, and worst..

Never feel guilty, 

Never feel sorry,

Never feel regrets,

That's what I could say about you.

If you think you're doing right, continue thinking..

IF I DO MADE YOU STRESS ALL THIS WHILE?

I never expect it to be like this,

Low expectations of your rudeness,

Low expectation that you could leave me alone,

Low expectation that I got hurted,

Low expectation that I could cry when I was with you,

Low expectation that you could't be my lullaby..

I don't LOVE myself?

I eat everyday,

I walk home,

I protect myself,

I earn myself,

I sacrifice,

I think twice,

I ask before I do..

What are you thinking now?

♥BYEBYE